Broken Lay Vows

My very dear Kim,
Thank you very much for your kind letter. I understand what you are saying and my suggestion is for you to please read Pabongka Rinpoche's text Heart-Spoon [now revised and renamed The Heart's Utmost Need], and for you to meditate on the perfect human rebirth, karma, and especially focus on death and impermanence and the sufferings of the lower realms.

After you have gone through all the stages of the lower scope, then again go back and start the meditations again. Go over the lower scope and parts of the lower scope that you did not finish in one day’s meditation, then continue the next day.

I have attached some advice on how to meditate on the lamrim. You should do meditations on the lower scope for at least one year, and then maybe you will have realizations. It is best if you can do the meditations every day in the morning and evenings, whatever you can, continuously. This will help very much.

With much love and prayers ...

P.S. Please make your life most beneficial with the thought of bodhicitta.