Obstacles to Guru Devotion

My very dear one,
Please continue with the prostrations by reciting the names of the Thirty-five Buddhas, and whatever number of prostrations you can do, please continue.

If you have done Vajrayogini retreat, Yamantaka retreat, or any Highest Yoga Tantra retreat with a fire puja (where you completed the number of mantras, etc.), then it is important that you do self-initiation, the long or short one. If you can do the short one every day, that is best, otherwise once a week or once a month. Try that, it is very good. In this way, you purify negative karma and also broken pratimoksha, bodhisattva and tantric vows, especially bodhisattva vows. This purifies the negative karma.

If you can, try to finish the number of prostrations I suggested; that would be very good. If you can, do more. Even bodhisattvas who have very high realizations still do prostrations, so for us, who still have delusions, there is no question that we have to do them. 300,000 is nothing if you think of all the negative karma that we have collected during beginningless rebirths, which has not been purified and not yet experienced. 300,000 is nothing, and bodhisattvas often do seven, eight or nine million, even a zillion. If they can, they do more.

When bad thoughts come, think the lama is Buddha, Chenrezig, an enlightened being, because enlightened beings do exist. There are so many numberless buddhas, including Guru Shakyamuni Buddha, and numberless beings exist who have completed the path. Even now in this world there are many people who have experiences. Immediately try to think that all of this has happened because of the guru, because of the power of actually practicing guru yoga.

With much love and prayers...

You are asking about a very urgent and important practice, in other words, a protection for developing one’s mind on the path to enlightenment.

It is said in many tantric teachings—such as the Kalachakra and Guhyasamaja—that even if one has accumulated the five uninterrupted negative karmas, one can still achieve the sublime vehicle in this life, in particular the Maha-anuttara path, which is the most skillful for granting enlightenment in a brief lifetime in degenerate times. But those who criticize the guru from the heart will not achieve this, even if they practice the sublime vehicle.

In Lama Tsongkhapa’s lamrim, it is clearly mentioned that even for the thought that the virtuous friend is ordinary to arise is a cause to lose realizations. This means also that it becomes an obstacle to developing the mind on the path.

The very important thing is to analyze and check as much as possible before making Dharma contact. With the recognition of guru and disciple, since the Dharma contact is established, then there is no going back. One has to have a new relationship. It is another world, looking at that person with a new mind, a pure mind.

It is said by Pabongka Dechen Nyingpo, the great enlightened being, the Heruka, that if one is able to stop all thoughts of mistakes and look only at good qualities, seeing the guru only as Buddha, then one can achieve enlightenment in this life.

This is not only for this life. Generally, one cannot get enlightened while seeing mistakes in the virtuous friend. But, with the realization of seeing all buddhas as the guru and all gurus as Buddha, one can. This is said in all four Tibetan Mahayana sects, in both sutra and tantra.

Making mistakes, allowing heresy, anger, or criticism to arise, giving up the virtuous friend: these become the cause for one not to find a guru in future lives. It is said in the Essence of Nectar that it causes one to be unable to hear the sound of the holy Dharma, not to mention being able to find a virtuous friend, and that one becomes impoverished in terms of a virtuous friend in all one’s lifetimes.

This is the last outline of the eight shortcomings of incorrectly devoting to a virtuous friend.

I often mention this quotation by the Fifth Dalai Lama:

When one’s own mistakes appear to one’s own hallucinated mind in the actions of the guru, one must realize that this is one’s own mistake and abandon it like poison.

This means that we must abandon the belief that there is a mistake in the actions of the virtuous friend.

With this mindfulness, look at that person as Buddha, one who has eliminated all mistakes and has all good qualities. Then, if the guru asks you to do something, and it’s something that you don’t have the capacity to do now, if your mind hasn’t reached that level, then with this pure thought that I mentioned before, with this mindfulness, one respectfully explains to the guru that one is incapable of doing this, and in this way one tries to get the guru to excuse one from doing it.

This is what is mentioned in the Fifty Verses of Guru Devotion and in the Vinaya. If the guru says to do something that is not Dharma, one can ask permission not to do it. It doesn’t say to have negative thoughts or to criticize him. This is how to deal with the problem without it becoming an obstacle to developing one’s mind on the path.

Of course, as His Holiness the Dalai Lama mentions all the time, when a special guru and special disciple meet, then every single thing the guru says is to be done, like Tilopa and Naropa, or Marpa and Milarepa, and so forth.

The main thing here is to be skillful and try not to hurt the holy mind of the guru. Hurting the mind of the guru is the greatest obstacle to developing one’s own mind on the path to enlightenment.

If you have made a mistake toward the guru then you must confess from the heart. This way, you get the profit of lightening and purifying the negative karma. Of course, there are many other practices, such as Samayavajra and self-initiations, but one very good thing is to do some service, some practice that pleases the holy mind of the virtuous friend.

You mentioned sincerity, but in my view this sincerity is without wisdom. Sincerity is beneficial to others when it has wisdom and is performed with compassion. If there is wisdom, usually there should also be compassion, I think, which means a very wide, encompassing wisdom.

For example, if someone comes along who wants to kill a particular person, and he asks you where that person has gone, and you think you should be sincere, without wisdom—which also should include compassion—then you will tell him where the person went, instead of saying you don’t know, which would save the person’s life.

The other thing is, we can always find mistakes. Also, we think it is a question of whether it is a big mistake or a small mistake. There will always be something —too much anger, too much miserliness, too much pride, a partial mind, etc.

If you look for mistakes, you will see mistakes.

Thank you very much for your kind letter.
According to my observations, if you can, do these practices:

• 200,000 Vajrasattva mantras
• 100,000 prostrations to the Thirty-five Buddhas

If I say to do them based on bodhicitta, that may be too nice for you. So I will say to do them with a strong thought of impermanence and death. If I say “bodhicitta,” maybe it will be too comfortable.

My very dear one,
Thank you very much for your kind letter.

You are experiencing much pain and hardship, and that experience becomes the greatest purification for you. That pain purifies so many eons of the most intense suffering in the hell realms, preta realms, animal realms, or human realms. Even though it was unbearable, it was only for a short time, and you have purified countless eons, which now you don’t have to suffer. That is what you achieve. All the merit and the pain that you felt purifies obstacles to achieving enlightenment.

In regard to your guru devotion, you completely dedicated yourself to your guru. Your motivation was totally pure, so if you died with that motivation, it would be great. This is what bodhisattvas do. There are bodhisattvas who take different forms to benefit other sentient beings, making a connection with them, to purify them and in this way bring them to enlightenment and stop them from creating heavy negative karma.

It is said in the Fifty Verses of Guru Devotion:

Do whatever pleases the guru and abandon whatever displeases the guru.

Think that whatever the guru does, this is a special method to purify me, to end all my heavy, negative karma from the past, and all the obstacles to my realizations. This is for my success, for the highest enlightenment, to liberate me from samsara, and for the happiness of all my future lives.

There is a story about my attendant Roger, when he was working very hard in Kathmandu. He was very poor and sick, and every night he had to walk back to Kopan Monastery. One time he collapsed while he was crossing the fields on his way up to Kopan. He was extremely sick and also completely exhausted, and just could not get up, so he tried to use psychology to make himself get up. He imagined that he was in a stadium and there were lots of people watching him, and everyone was shouting, saying in one voice, “You can do it! Get up!” Everyone was saying this and it gave him courage, and he was able to get up and walk up to Kopan. Even though physically he was unable to, by using psychology he was able to get the strength to make it there.

There is also the story of how Tilopa treated Naropa—there were twelve great hardships and twelve small hardships that Naropa had to perform. Tilopa asked Naropa to jump off the roof, and there was a hole down below. Naropa jumped and almost died, but then Tilopa came and blessed him, and he was instantly healed. Then Tilopa told Naropa to jump into a fire. Naropa did it immediately and almost died, and Tilopa came and blessed him, and he was instantly healed. Then another time there was a wedding going on. The wife and husband were going by in a carriage, and Tilopa asked Naropa to run up to the bride and touch her. Naropa immediately did it without hesitation, and the people beat him up. Again, he almost died, but Tilopa came and blessed him, and healed him immediately.

Then Tilopa asked Naropa to go to the house of someone who was cooking and take the food from the stove. So, without hesitating, Naropa went to get it, and was beaten up by people and almost died. Then Tilopa came and healed him. After that, one day, Tilopa did pipi in the sand and then threw the sand into Naropa’s face. Then he told Naropa to look up into the sky—there was the transformed mandala of Hevajra. Tilopa then gave Naropa the initiation.

All these twelve great hardships were there to cause Naropa’s enlightenment, to purify him, through Tilopa’s great skill in guiding his disciple, with a strong devotional mind.

You are in my prayers every day.

With much love and prayer ...

You have to understand that what causes all the realizations of the path and all the limitless qualities of the Buddha, whether you get enlightened or not, is guru devotion. Whether you get enlightened, and whether you are able to free countless sentient beings who are experiencing the intense sufferings of the lower realms and cause them to achieve the peerless happiness of liberation and enlightenment: all this depends on guru devotion. Therefore, when you are practicing, obstacles will arise from outside and within. Evil beings try to harm you because they don’t want you to get enlightened. They create obstacles for you, so you must be aware of this and constantly be on guard, never letting up even for a moment.

You must always be watching the mind, without a second’s break, because these interferers try to prevent you from gaining realizations. When obstacles do arise, whether from outside or inside, it is very important to make an effort, and never give up.

You must put effort into it, and inspire yourself. Encourage yourself, thinking: “I have Buddha nature, so therefore I can do this. No matter how much my mind goes down, I can bring it up again, because I have Buddha nature. Countless buddhas and bodhisattvas were once just like me, with delusions and obstacles, but they put effort into it and were able to gradually overcome them. Therefore, I must do the same. No matter how difficult, I must try and try.”

No matter what happens, no matter how much the mind goes down, no matter how many obstacles arise, you must make an effort, and try and try to overcome them.

Your main goal in life is not just to study. Your main goal is to achieve enlightenment, to free all sentient beings from suffering and bring them to enlightenment. For that, you need realizations on the path to enlightenment. And for that, you need to purify your mind and collect merit. Therefore, study cannot be your only goal in life.

Everything depends on correctly devoting to the virtuous friend, so you might find a big difference once you change your motivation. The emphasis should be to do what most pleases the guru, and correctly devote yourself to the virtuous friend. Everything comes down to that, and that’s the essential practice. Study is not the main aim of life.

Afterward, Rinpoche commented that later it seemed the nun changed her idea about the goal of her life, and this opened a different view up for her. This made it easy, and released her from the difficult thoughts toward her guru and his not teaching her various subjects.